Friday, August 6, 2010

A Slightly Misshapen Destiny- Written January 19, 2006

A Slightly Mishapen Destiny

We all travel the road of life at such a fast pace
Memories created, friendships fading

Everyone in contest to win "the race"

Early years filled with such promise and imagination

Middle years its all angst and everythings jaded

Where did your importance lie?

Was it really worth it to make that shy girl cry?

You think you know what love is and why its important

But that's just it, you DON'T get it

Highschool: Life's biggest popularity contest

Walking through the halls as every peer passes judgement

So much so that everyone is nothing but an outer shell

Those masks you all wear they have no story to tell!

Think about it, where you could be right now

Just by looking deeper, past the superficial

There comes a time when you have to REFUSE to sell out

Of course not every day is bad, and you make some great friends

But all too often thats where the story ends

We graduate and move away...promising to speak soon or meet another day

Granted for a select few thats true, for others its so only on the holidays

But those friends that you broke hearts, lied and cheated for?

What was it all worth to be adored?

College you think your time has finally come for that second chance

Its the promise land filled with new hopes, and new people to answer to

You can become that person you've always wanted to be

Because after all these are supposed to be the best years of your lives

Take that step up, and start to thrive

I know what its like though, eventually things change

And you wonder why you ever tried in the first place

Watch out your window, as those party girls leave yet again

While you sit up till all hours of the night struggling to finish everything

You could sell out, drink away the pain, find love in all the wrong places

Isn't it better to be alone than to have to become that fake person

The one who sleeps with all the guys just to feel special

Push your worries aside, no more wondering why,

College is the opportunity of a lifetime!

The friends we make, they are supposed to last forever!

Whether they actually will or not, we'll have to see

There's no telling whats in store for me

Most of all I wish that people would just stop competing in this silly race

Take a second, reflect on where they're going and how they got there in the first place

(C)2006 Lindsey Rae


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Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.