Sunday, October 31, 2010

:)

HAPPY

HALLOWEEN!

Pics from my Dad's benefit should be up on Fb soon!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

23 Months :)

I can't believe we've been together this long. I love him SO very much. He made us an AMAZING dinner tonight and we're both just having a relaxing date night in. Only thing missing is the coffee ;) Hopefully later tonight lol.

Here's one of our many engagement photos. My Aunt Dawn wanted to recreate the proposal so she had Nick get down on one knee. LOVE.


Ring Close Up :)

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

terrifying..

I have some questionable looking moles. I've been "moley" all my life and from what I can tell they've never really gotten bigger or changed. But, I'm just scared. Its the fear of the unknown thats the worse right now...What do I do if I go to the dr's appt and find out I have skin cancer...

What if I've had it for a while...

What if I can't afford treatment?

Ugh...I'm trying not to get three steps ahead of myself right now...but I honestly don't know how I'm going to get through the days til my Dr's appt. Ive even thought about calling to see if they've had any cancellations so I can move it up. sigh...

And if I don't have it...why all the moles....why new ones?

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Crazy Month

October has been one crazy month for us... We had a wedding of a good friend the first weekend, and it was a lot of fun, and it was Melanie's birthday. I got some decent pics at the wedding and got my drink on for the first time in FOREVER.

The very next week Josh had a birthday. He is Nick's best friend and Melanie's fiance lol. That weekend my Mom and I spent a lot of time in MD on Saturday helping with my Dad's poker run. It raised over 800 dollars to help with his medical bills! What a blessing.

October 14th was Nick's birthday. I got him a card, a king size Reese's and House Season 6 on DVD :)

October 15th was National Pregnancy and Infancy Loss Awareness Day. 2,000 woman A DAY lose their little ones. Such a staggering number and its not talked about very often. 1 in 4 pregnancies will end this way, so why its not talked about more, I don't know.



October 16th we went to my cousin Heather's wedding. It was soo pretty and A TON of fun. We got to dance and see family and enjoy ourselves. My Mom, Aunt Dawn and I all wore a piece of my Mom Mom's jewlery so that she could also share in the day. Later, when I got the pics up on facebook, there ended up being SEVERAL pictures with Rainbows and Orbs in them. I don't know what you believe, but I truly believe my Mom Mom was there with us that day.

This week has been hectic with work stuff and trying to get all of that done. I've also been sick on and off but I'm dealing okay.  Yesterday I actually left work early I was so sick and came home and slept for three hours. It was insane. After I woke up, Nick and I cleaned a bit and got ready for our condo cozy. Then we did some shopping and had a cake consultation with Jaimecakes. See her website here !  She is so nice and down to earth, I can't wait to see the sketches she comes up with. We will hopefully have another consult next week, but I have yet to hear back from them. I wanted to do at least 2 consults so we had a choice but I really am leaning towards going with Jaime. Her cake flavors were AMAZING and she was so nice and down to earth. I really just want to bless her with the order, if that makes sense.

The condo cozy went well today although, I am really bummed about more people not showing up. A lot of Nick's work friends came, and my Mom and Nick's mom and brother.  2 of my friends whom I love dearly and my sister also came over. I just kind of hoped more of my friends would show...but such is life I guess. I really adore those people that did come and support us.

The month will end with trick or treat night on Thursday and hopefull another cake consult, and my Dad's Halloween Benefit Dance that I'm kind of excited about but dreading, all at the same time. I need to find me a costume, and PRONTO.

Last but Not least, there's been a lot of pregnancy announcements on a board I frequent as well as facebook and blogs recently. I'm so VERY happy for all of my friends, and wish them nothing but happy and healthy pregnancies, but it makes me sad sometimes too. I want a baby in THE WORST way. I am so terrified I won't be able to get pregnant again.  I guess I'm just sad that I have to wait another 6 and a half months to really try again and really thats a LONG time.

I miss you my little Monkey. Please help your momma stay strong, while I wait for your big brother or sister <3

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Happy Birthday Nick!

My Fiance is a couple months younger than me, about 1 and a half to be exact, and I sometimes kid with him about the fact that I'm older.  Today, he turned 25. 

Without him, I don't know where I'd be...we may not always get a long but we love each other with a force that is unbreakable. He is my rock, my lover, my friend and sooo much more.  I am sooo unbelievably lucky God saw it to bring us together. I thank Him for it each and every day.

Things aren't always easy for us, but we make it.  We rely on Faith, Love and a little bit a craziness ;)

Here's one of the better pictures of Nick and I...I love him so much, and it helps a little that he's so easy on the eyes! ;)

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I know its been awhile guys...

I'm really sorry for the lack of posts lately. I really wish I had soemthing more interesting to post about than every day life. I may do a book review of The Last Song here soon, so keep in touch for that!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Not much to say..

I'm really sorry I haven't written more. The truth is life has just really gotten away from me lately. I've been uber busy!  I go to work from 7:30ish til at least 3, usually later by the time I actually get out. Three days a week I have chiropractor appointments in order to try and get my life back to some sort of normalcy...and the other two days I come home and clean and rest.  October is a crazy month filled with birthdays, weddings, my dad's Poker Run and his Halloween Benefit Dance. I really feel as if I'm moving ten steps forward five steps back sort of thing.

I should be cleaning instead of sitting her typing this right now, but today was such a hectic day at work that I just need to sit and be still for awhile.  I am excited for Glee and Parenthood tonight...I love those shows.  We have a training in Harrisburg early tomorrow and I will be gone nearly ALL day. That, I'm hating.  ew.

The other truth is I haven't been dealing with things as well lately. It seems as if the closer it gets to my due date, the harder I struggle with everything. I'm really having a hard time processing it all...I miss my baby. Very much. Life just isn't fair.

October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infancy Loss Awareness Day.  1 in 4 pregnancies will end in miscarriage, its a startlingly high statistic that should be talked about more. But instead unlike so many other awareness events (Cancer, Autism,etc) People just don't want to talk about it or don't know what to say. Please say a prayer or keep all of the families affected with this horrible statistic in your hearts and minds this month, and especially on this day.

I miss you Baby Albright! Aka Monkey
Lost on 05/01/10
Due Date 12/10/10

Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.