Sunday, November 28, 2010

2 Years!

Today, Nick and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary!  I can't believe its been two years! What an amazing two years it has been...

I love him so much!

He is the most amazing person. He loves me, makes me laugh, gives me strength and fills me to my core. I am so excited to be his wife, in a mere 160 days! I can't wait. I also can not wait, to make him a father! The sooner the wedding gets here...the sooner I can begin to make that dream a reality.  Hopefully this time, I will carry a baby to term..

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Post and Run...

In just 10 days, Nick and I will be together for TWO YEARS! Crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Saturday, November 13, 2010

30 things I'm thankful for

Hey everyone!

I know that sometimes, this blog turns into me complaining/venting about my miscarriage, and while I'm okay with that because its part of my healing process, I want to make sure everyone knows that I'm not ungrateful or not thankful for what I DO have.

It's November and many people are doing a thing they are thankful for everyday as a blog post or facebook status...Rather than do it that way, because I'd probably forget to post one day...

I decided to list 30 things I am thankful for in one post. So without further Ado the things I am thankful for...

1. I am thankful for my God. Who saves and restores my life.
2. I am thankful for my Mom, who is my best friend, and understands me SO well.
3. I am thankful for my Family who shows me what true love and support really is.
4. I am thankful for my friends who help me remember to laugh.
5. I am thankful for my Job and being able to help provide for my home and future family.
6. I am thankful for my Fiance, who is the strongest person I know. I am thankful that he works so hard for us, makes me laugh, and keeps me sane!
7. I am thankful for my Dad, who taught me how to be a grown up and take care of myself, and not depend on others.
8. I am thankful for modern technology like television, and internet. Where would we be without these things?
9. I am thankful for my dog, Lexie, who is really my baby. She has such unconditional love for Nick and I.
10. I am thankful for my sister, who while we haven't always gotten along, always makes me laugh and does care a lot for me.
11. I am thankful for my sisters husband, because without him we would not have my beautiful Niece!
12. I am thankful for my Haileybug!!! She is the cutest thing EVER. She makes me sooo happy and I love to spend time with her when I can.
13. I am thankful for my car, that helps me get to work and visit people when I want to.
14. I am thankful we have a roof over our heads and food in the fridge to eat.
15. I am thankful for my church, where I have a safe place to worship my God.
16. I am thankful for having clothes to wear on my body and shoes to wear on my feet.
17. I am thankful that even though sometimes we live paycheck to paycheck, we always seem to make it.
18. I am thankful for my cousin, Ashley, who always sticks by my side!
19. I am thankful for my Dad's friends and family, who have really helped us all get through the days surrounding his accident.
20. I am thankful for a good book. There's nothing like a good book before bed :)
21. I am thankful for my doctors, whom I love! They are very proactive and strive to get answers.
22. I am thankful for my body, that does amazing things, and while I don't always love the way it looks, I love that some day it will give me a child.
23. I am thankful for my stepdad, who really does a lot for my Mom and our family.
24. I am thankful for the food network, which I watch frequently, and it always gives me great ideas!
25. I am thankful for my best friend Melanie. We've been through a lot but we always come back to being friends together. Without her, my life would be no where near as well rounded.
26. I am thankful for the Earth, where we live, and the wonders it possesses.
27. I am thankful for my Washer and Dryer, and Dishwasher...they make my life SOO much easier...
28. I am thankful for my bed, which is SOOOO comfortable.
29. I am thankful for my wedding coming up in LESS than six months!!!
30. I am thankful for our servicemen and women in uniform. Whether it be a paramedic uniform like my love wears, police, fire, military...if you wear a uniform and help keep people safe, THANK YOU.

Saturday, November 6, 2010


When the world says, "Give up,"

Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

~Author Unknown

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Monday, November 1, 2010

6 Months..

Its been 6 months since we said goodbye to our little one..

I almost forgot about it until I saw my ticker while posting on a bump board....I guess that means I'm healing? I'm not really sure.  I do feel a little guilty for kind of forgetting.

I miss you monkey.

Nick and I are planning something special for the day that's supposed to be your birthday...but I'm not sure what that will be just yet.  <3

Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.