Thursday, August 5, 2010

Hate doing the whole, shoulda coulda, woulda thing...

So there was yet another Facebook pregnancy post here lately...I can't deal. I want to dissapear. I was doing so well, for sooo long, and now for some reason I keep running across triggers. I miss my baby. I should be 22 FREAKIN WEEKS right now. But I'm not. I have an empty uterus and an empty heart. Ugh. 

I can't wait to try again, but know that its not a logical choice until after we get married due to the timing of it all.

On top of that I found out my triglyceride levels are high and my good cholesterol levels are low...FRIGGIN great.

I'm so not in the mood right now for any drama or craziness and I swear if I get on fb today and theres more posts about preggos, I might just put a hold on my account.  I have a feeling this is going to get worse as my due date keeps looming closer...I really do.   Maybe once it passes I can take a breath and start feeling normal again...I can only hope.

I'm not usually so depressing and negative, really. Just having a hard time dealing with things right now.


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Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.