Saturday, August 21, 2010

Jealousy-Written in April 2007


It's a giddy kind of jealousy that I feel

It's hard to believe that this could ever be real

I sigh at your picture and smile hearing your name

With you here beside me, I'll never be the same

I wish to be next to you, holding your hand

I long for the day that I can make you understand

It's this sweet kind of jealousy that makes me do the things I do

It's this sweet kind of jealousy that makes me long for you

I want to be the one you look at and the one you call your own

I wait for the day that it's you one the other end of my ringing phone

The sweet way you talk, and the way you make me laugh

The scary way I feel when I think it might not last

It's this crazy kind of jealousy when I know theres other girls

It's a crazy kind of jealousy that makes me want to be your world

I worry that they're better, prettier or more your type

I hope you know that for you I'll put up a fight

I know you feel the same way and I think that's the best and worst part

Because now that I know, I think I may have just lost my heart

I fall fast and I fall hard, and I'm jealous of anyone that can treat love like a game

Please ease these fears of mine and say you feel the same

The days get longer, and the nights are restless as I dream of your face

I dare say that I may kiss you one of these days

I've never felt this way before, and the funny part, you see

Is now that I have you, there are actually people jealous of me.


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Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.