Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I wish I had told more people.

http://mothering.com/pregnancy-birth/in-praise-of-telling-too-soon


I wish I had told more people. Just like the last paragraph says, the hardest part has been keeping the whole damn thing a secret from the people that mean the most. I've been through the hardest thing, EVER, and I can't even talk about it to most. The pictures are gone, the test has long been thrown away, its almost like this whole thing never existed. Except for the few pictures from D.C. in which I'm pregnant, and no one knows, and except for my broken heart. Thats it....

Thats. It.

2 comments:

  1. (((((hugs))))) You know you can always talk to me, I'm always willing to listen.

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  2. I know, and I love you for it! <3 Thank You :)

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Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.