Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Forbidden Fruit- Written October 2008, ironically one month before I met Nick :)

I'm in a really wierd mood today...nauseous, exhausted and overly emotional. EW. Not a great all.    My only guess is that Aunt Flo will soon be on her way....Greaaat. -TOTAL sarcasm.

In other news..found this old poem, and it semi-brightened my spirits...but made me really miss Nick ;) Just for clarification, this is not written about any specific person, although it now does describe Nick and I pretty good lol.  I was just in a mood when I wrote it...;)

Forbidden Fruit

A dark whisper consumes me

A shadow touches my soul

Reaching deeper, delving harder into the unkown

I am awakened.

Mystery calls to me, a jealous pixie

Emotions surge, secrets claw their way out

A whisper against my ear, a shiver down my spine

Lips aching to be kissed, and hands longing to touch

A hidden feeling, a want for more

You are the forbidden fruit

Chemistry realized, chances found

Darkness consumes and I am she

Mystery grabs my heart and turns it cold

I turn my head and fall to the flame

Its fire burns, lapping at my body

Scorching heat consumes us, darkness welcomes us in

Bittersweet satisfaction

Temptation overtakes me.

Mystery has won

You and I are one.


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Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.