Thursday, July 14, 2011

Step One...Remove Foot from Mouth

Unfortunately, I am one of THOSE people.

I tend to say stupid things sometimes, most of the time without ever meaning to.

I don't know why but for whatever reason, there are days, times and moments where I lack a filter. I say really stupid stuff without thinking first about what I'm saying, who it could hurt or how it could be interpreted.

The crazy part is, is that whenever I do say something, I always realize it afterwards. Most of the time, I just worded it wrong.

I have this incessant need to fill silence. Sometimes, in trying to do that, I say stupid things.

I also get nervous when I am put on the spot. So sometimes, when a conversation turns to me, I verbal vomit and later, realize I probably sounded one fry short of a happy meal.

I also tend to say things when I'm frustrated that I don't mean. Most of that is normal though, I think?

When my emotions are high, I either lack words or have a ton of them (see this blog post), the moral of the story is, I'm sorry that sometimes, I lack common sense.

For ANYONE I could have ever hurt with ANYTHING I have ever said, I am truly and deeply sorry. I am working on this whole foot in mouth/common sense thing. I really am.

Please accept my apologies, and know that I try to be the best person I know how. I don't need more enemies in my life. I have very few friends as it is.

To my friends, I love you all. Thank you for being there, when I'm at my best, but even more so when I'm at my worst.

To my husband- I love you more than I ever thought possible. You are my world. Thank you for putting up with me and helping me, but most of all for being patient with me when I get hit with a dose of foot in mouth disease. Thank you for loving me.

1 comment:

  1. I am the same way. I think that's why most of the time, unless people know me very well, I tend to just keep my mouth shut. It's better that way, haha.


Our Journey towards Making a Family

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Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.