Friday, March 4, 2011

Read It: I Will Carry You

I finally finished reading Angie Smith's new book, I Will Carry You.   (<---Order it Here!)

I Will Carry You is a beautifully written, spiritually driven account of Angie and Todd Smith's journey to expand their beautiful family.  Through ultrasound, they find out that their beautiful fourth daughter would not make it. They chose to carry their daughter to term, and received a miracle when they were given almost three beautiful hours to spend with their new little one. Her name, was Audrey Caroline. And her short life changed the world in more ways then her parents and society would ever know.

I have to say, having experienced an Early Miscarriage, this book was very helpful to me. It helped me to sort through my grief, and help me to feel as if I'm not alone. I respect Angie very much for her willingness to share her story with the world. Something she said in her book also really resonated with me. She mentioned that, no matter if you had an Early, Middle or Late Miscarriage, every loss is still a loss and we all have to grieve in our own way. EVERY loss is important, Every loss is meaningful to that Mother. It hits every woman differently. I really feel as if Angie really explained this in her book.

The book definitely had some tearful moments, especially the letters to Audrey from her Mommy and Daddy. It was an eye opening, heart wrenching, book.  The pictures, and the bible verses made me feel as if I was reading right out of her own journal! I recommend it to any Baby Loss Mama!  MOST IMPORTANTLY, I would also recommend it to any one that has a family member or friend, that has experienced a loss. It will help you understand what those going through or who have had a loss are feeling.

Angie has a blog that she started to share Audrey's Story. Please go, read and learn more about this amazing family!

Her husband Todd, is one of the lead singers of the Christian group, Selah. They wrote a special song called "I Will Carry You (Audrey's Song). Pulls at my heart EVERY time. Please watch it.


  1. I love this book and pass it onto anyone who has had a miscarriage or baby loss. The strength of this family, their bare honesty, and their desire to help others is inspirational!

  2. I just finished reading this as well I was actually going to tell you about it but then I saw you posted about it. I loved it. Another good on is Knocked up Knocked down.

  3. It sounds like a beautiful book. Very sad, but I hope that it helps many other women dealing with miscarriage and a loss of a baby.

    BTW, following you back :-) Great blog you have here.
    Hip Chick's Guide to PMS, Pregnancy, and Babies


Our Journey towards Making a Family

Long Version : Our Journey Blog Post
Go here to learn about how we got our start..and where we are now!

Short Version:
11-28-2008- Started Dating

2-14-2010- Got Engaged :)

4-3-2010- First Positive Test- Baby 1 due 12/10/10

5-1-2010- Miscarriage at 8wks2days

12-10-2010- Estimated Due Date for Baby 1

5-5-2011- Second Positive Test- Baby 2 due 1-12-12
5-7-2011- We are Married!! :)
5-14-2011- Miscarriage at 5wks2days

6-16-2011- Repeated Pregnancy Loss blood work
6-23-2011- HSG looks good!
6-23-2011- dx positive ANA- Anti Nuclear Antibodies

07-05-2011- Rheumatologist Appointment
7-11-2011- dx Low Vitamin D levels. Start Prescription Vitamin D and baby aspirin

09/2011- Officially No Longer Preventing

10/5/11-First cycle Actively Trying. AF shows up

11/21/11-Celiac Bloodwork Negative, Vit D still lower than normal, start another prescription. Continue prenatals with Vit. D as well

01-12-12-Estimated Due Date for Baby 2
01/12-Vit D in normal range, start over the counter Daily Calcium with Vit D supplement per Rhuematologist.

2/15/12-Appt with new Ob who is more proactive with Progesterone Testing-suspects progesterone issues.

2/15/12- 5/9/12-Stop trying and start new charting method (Creighton) to watch for hormone imbalance.